Survivor’s Playlist

Let’s keep this short and sweet.

Being a rape or sexual abuse survivor is hard.  I have found that music is my saviour when I get triggered or when the aftereffects of being abused get to me. I decided to share the music I listen to to deal as a way to help other survivors. As I find new music, I will add it. This was a bitter-sweet task, and I hope it is enjoyed. 

http://grooveshark.com/#!/playlist/Sexual+Abuse+Survivor+s+Playlist/91067059

General Dealing

Fine again-Seether

Lyric: And I am aware now of how
everything’s gonna be fine one day
Too late, I’m in hell

Would it Matter- Skillet

Lyric: I know I’m a mess and I wanna be someone
Someone that I like better
I can never forget
So don’t remind me of it forever

Adele- Turning Tables

Lyric: So, I won’t let you close enough to hurt me
No, I won’t rescue you to just desert me
I can’t give you the heart you think you gave me
It’s time to say goodbye to turning tables
To turning tables

Lovers and Liars- Anthem for the Lonely

Lyric: Did somebody let you down?
Did they throw you away?
Did they take a piece of you
you hope to get back someday?

Is it hard to tell that broken heart to listen to your mind?
It’s ok, we all get lonely sometimes.

Anger at the event

Apocalyptica featuring Corey Taylor- I’m not Jesus

Lyric: When your world comes crashing down
I want to be there.
If God is looking down on me!

Emilie Autumn- I know where you sleep

Lyric: I know your tainted flesh
I know your filthy soul
I know each trick you played
Whore you laid
Dream you stole
I know the bed in the room in the wall
In the house where you got what you wanted and ruined it all
I know the secrets that you keep
I know where you sleep!

Evanescence or Korn- Thoughtless

Lyric: Thumbing through the pages of my fantasies
I’m above you, smiling at you, drown, drown, drown
I wanna kill and rape you the way you raped me
And I’ll pull the trigger And you’re down, down, down

Placebo or Archive- Fuck You

Lyric: Can’t believe you were once just like anyone else
Then you grew and became like the devil himself
Pray to god I can think of a nice thing to say
But I don’t think I can so fuck you anyway

Smashing Pumpkins- Quiet

Lyric: For years
I’ve been sleeping
Helpless
Couldn’t tell a soul

Be ashamed
Of the mess you’ve made
My eyes never forget, you see
Behind me

Shellac- Prayer to God

Lyric: Him – just fucking kill him, I don’t care if it hurts.
Yes I do, I want it to,
fucking kill him but first
make him cry like a woman,
(no particular woman)

In Flames- Like you better dead

Lyric: I can be as angry as I want to be
Just watch me burn
I think you’re way too cold
Just watch and learn

I’ll never sleep here anymore
My house is not my home
I like you better dead
And I’m better off alone

Linkin Park- Figure .09

Lyric: Nothing ever stops all these thoughts and the pain attached to them
Sometimes I wonder why this is happening
It’s like nothing I can do would distract me when
I think of how I shot myself in the back again
‘Cause from the infinite words I could say I
Put all pain you gave to me on display
But didn’t realize instead of setting it free I
Took what I hated and made it a part of me

Otep- Ghostflowers

Lyric: You want to
See me burn
I am LIVING FIRE!

You will know me
By the scars I bear

You will know me
By the hate I swear

You will know me
By the scars I bear

Shapeless vengeance!

Sadness at the event

Bif Naked- Tell on you

Lyric: alone am I with your face burned in my mind
you are the one (the fucker) who deserves to die
it should have never been me.

please remember: I know who you are.
someday, I’ll have the strength to tell.

Plumb- Damaged

Lyric: I didn’t say all the things that i wanted to say

And you can’t take back what you’ve taken away
’cause I feel you, I feel you near me

Tori Amos- Me and a Gun

Lyric: Yes I wore a slinky red thing
Does that mean I should spread
For you, your friends your father, Mr. Ed

Me and a gun
and a man
On my back
But I haven’t seen Barbados
So I must get out of this

Smashing Pumpkins-  Disarm

Lyric: Disarm you with a smile
And leave you like they left me here
To wither in denial
The bitterness of one who’s left alone
Ooh, the years burn
Ooh, the years burn, burn, burn

Skid Row- In a Darkened Room

Lyric: All the precious times have been put
to rest again
And the smile of the dawn
Brings tainted lust singing my requiem
Can I face the day when I’m tortured
in my trust
And watch it crystalize
While my salvation crumples to dust

Healing

Within Temptation-Overcome

Lyric: Over and over
I felt so small
But one day I’ll be stronger
And you better watch out

I will overcome
Your violence their silence
Although,
It can’t be undone
I will overcome

Control-Poe

Lyric: While you were looking the other way
While you had your eyes closed
While you were licking your lips
‘Cause I was miserable
While you were selling your soul
While you were tearing a hole in me

I was taking control

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